Today I am taking part in my first Insecure Writer's Support Group blog post. The idea is writers blog on the first Wednesday of the month about their fears, struggles and triumphs they have experienced with their writing.
I thought I would start off with my main fear as a writer and the one I have to constantly push away at the moment to prevent me from giving up. I've had two rejections so far for Book 1 (but am waiting on more from other agents) and my fear is what if that's all I can expect - rejection after rejection? What if I spend hour after hour at the computer, tapping away and I never make it? What if I'm never taken on by an agent? What if I never get published? And the worst bit, what if I never see my book in physical form with a beautiful cover?
I do know that I can't give up. If I do, I'll never achieve anything but sometimes I feel like those crappy, tone-deaf contestants on the X Factor - 'But I want it soooo much'.